Is God testing me this time around?
29 November 2007
BVC life is not easy! I can't possibly blame anyone for this but MYSELF. I wanted this course so badly and got through the application and the interview process. Finally Northumbria University reserved a place for me. Was very fortunate and beaming with a big smile over it. Up-to-date, the course has run for 2 month and 2 weeks and was coping well for most of the subjects. And I was quite pleased with my overall performance for the skills practice sessions.
Today, dated 29/11/2007, God has showed me the other side of it. My perspective, judgment and/ or self-assurance were wrong all this while. The mock assessment has proven to me that hard work, involves long hours and grinding work, is required. Is God testing me again? By letting me fall hard on the ground and make me realize that certain things needs reflection at some point of time. After reflection, stand up on my own two feet again. Is it possible for me to go through it alone? Am I able to prove otherwise?
Feeling very down at the moment and there is nothing I can do but to weep in silence. Hoping that miracle will change the situation or angels dropping from the sky to comfort me! Words of comfort take me nowhere but having faith in God will help me in every single way.
Overall, I have woken up from my dreamland which I thought the journey was as smooth as silk. Discovering my own pitfall was unacceptable by me but Life Goes On with God's wish and strength that he has in me. He has brought me till this far, am I able to disappoint anyone at this stage? The answer is a big "No".
Taken part of Michael Bolton's lyrics: Go the Distance
"I wont look back, I can go the distance
And Ill stay on track, no, I wont accept defeat
Its an uphill slope, but I wont lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete"
Off to uni now to get things done instead of ranting!
Today, dated 29/11/2007, God has showed me the other side of it. My perspective, judgment and/ or self-assurance were wrong all this while. The mock assessment has proven to me that hard work, involves long hours and grinding work, is required. Is God testing me again? By letting me fall hard on the ground and make me realize that certain things needs reflection at some point of time. After reflection, stand up on my own two feet again. Is it possible for me to go through it alone? Am I able to prove otherwise?
Feeling very down at the moment and there is nothing I can do but to weep in silence. Hoping that miracle will change the situation or angels dropping from the sky to comfort me! Words of comfort take me nowhere but having faith in God will help me in every single way.
Overall, I have woken up from my dreamland which I thought the journey was as smooth as silk. Discovering my own pitfall was unacceptable by me but Life Goes On with God's wish and strength that he has in me. He has brought me till this far, am I able to disappoint anyone at this stage? The answer is a big "No".
Taken part of Michael Bolton's lyrics: Go the Distance
"I wont look back, I can go the distance
And Ill stay on track, no, I wont accept defeat
Its an uphill slope, but I wont lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete"
Off to uni now to get things done instead of ranting!
Labels: courage, criticism, reflection
